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Why does she get to be pissed off?

Mar. 26th, 2007 | 08:16 pm

My math tudor starts at 6:15. It ends at 7:15. MK was supposed to pick me up. She came to pick me up at 7:55. 

I get into the car, and she's pissed off. She doesn't even say sorry. She drives home a jillion miles an hour. 

I asked her why she didn't say sorry, she said there was no point. 

She is still fuming. 

She is always mad. 

Why does she get to be mad? 

She has PERFECT grades. She's gotten into every college so far that she has applied to. The one she really cares about has offered her a 44K scholarship. $11,000 a year.  She has a perfect boyfriend. Great friends. She's beautiful.

And I know I can say this, she has no real, real problems. I know her, through and through. She tells me everything. It's not like she covering something up, trust me, I'd know. 

So why does she get to be pissed off? 

I have horrible grades. I will not get into any good colleges, my parents have confirmed that. I don't have a boyfriend. I'm not gonna be gettin' any scholarships.  I don't find myself that attractive. But I do have great friends. 

You all keep me together. 

My parents never let me know when I've done something right. Only, when I've done something wrong, which apparently is all of the time.  

I don't know. 

So, why? 

I suppose we are all human. 
Deal with it. 


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a few things worth seeing on YouTube

Mar. 19th, 2007 | 09:59 pm

Magic Trick by David Copperfield: 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j9U3pZFPNcc 

Because it's cute: 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_BuRwH59oAo 

Strongest Dad in the World [From Sports Illustrated, By Rick Reilly] Eighty-five times he's pushed his disabled son, Rick, 26.2 miles in marathons. Eight times he's not only pushed him 26.2 miles in a wheelchair but also towed him 2.4 miles in a dinghy while swimming and pedaled him 112 miles in a seat on the handlebars--all in the same day.: 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f4B-r8KJhlE 

Part of the Erick Liang Movie: 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PKnloiM-0Ns 

9months of gestation in 20 seconds: 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aU6ojtBW0Qo 

Nintendo SIXTY-FOOOUUUURRRR: 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pFlcqWQVVuU 

WTF? Amazing. 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eAhfZUZiwSE 

 

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Gruesome thought

Mar. 18th, 2007 | 04:03 pm
mood: confusedconfused

I was thinking.
A horrible thought. 

Without diseases, the world would be over populated.
There would be no more resouces left, no more anything.  No more plants, animals, or oxygen. We'd use it all up. There wouldn't be enough room for us all...

So in a way, diseases help other humans.... 

Because if we have a cure for every sickness, the world would become overpopulated. Seriously. 

It's not that I don't want a cure for cancer or AIDS. I most certainly do. 

But I was just thinking, tis all. 

Bothersome subject.





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"From on high, in the distance, there's a voice that calls "Remember who you are."

Mar. 7th, 2007 | 05:05 pm

"From on high, in the distance, there's a voice that calls "Remember who you are." If you lose yourself, your courage soon will follow, so be strong tonight. Remember who you are. You're a soldier, fighting in a battle. To be free once more. Yea, that's worth fighting for." 

We all need to keep fighting for it. Whatever it is. Because when we finally can stop fighting, the reward will be great. And the relief will feel great. So I'm gonna keep fighting. For my grades, for me, for my running. For a chance at something greater. For a chance at something better. For a chance to give myself what I deserve. For a chance to give others what they deserve. To fight for others when they can not. To fight. 

You all, fight for the life you want. 

Life is like a race in many ways. The one who finishes first, is not always the winner, one might say. 
Also, you can't focus on the past laps that you might have screwed up on, the ones you might have had terrible pains. You have to focus on the ones your doing now. The ones that will come. If you focus too much on the past, it can mess the race up.  Don't do that. Just remember who you are. And run your race to the best of your abilities. 

"To give anything less than your best is to sacrifice the Gift." -Steve Prefontaine 

This applies to more than just sports related things. 
Life is a gift.   

"We were meant to live for so much more."
-Switchfoot

SCF of the LJ post of the day: 

'NOTHER PIC of GC! 
 Look how cute he is sittin' in the middle of the road.

Then a dead sexy pic. 



Hehe.

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Mar. 1st, 2007 | 05:38 pm

I'm used to being disappointed. I'm using to failing. I'm used to things going wrong. I'm used to things always being messed up. And I don't have a problem with it. So usually when it happens, I'm ready for it. It doesn't come out of the darkness and slap me in the face. I expect it to come. It's not so so bad. 

For example, when something goes okay or at least half-way right, it's a nice surprise when it happens. 

I'm used to feeling like no one. I'm used to feeling like an idiot. I'm used to feeling like I won't be noticed. And I'm okay with that now. It doens't really keep me from doing anything or acting any way different. Most of the time. 


Meh. 

Oh well. 

Here's a good pic of GC.

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Feb. 26th, 2007 | 10:46 pm

Track today was good. It was cold. My legs were noticeably hairy and white. My temple whiskers also stood out 4 ft. on either side. 
I looked quite attractive, as I can imagine. 

Tommorow I will wear under armor. Black under armor looks so badass. Really it does, if you want to look BA, wear black under armor. Well, mostly it applies to girls. But still. 

The first part of it was nice. The 2 600's. I felt good.

Then the 2 800's, my hip felt like crushed beetles. Wait, crushed beetle shells. With some nails. And polish. Hehe. Gross, I know. 

The rest of the day since track my hip has been a bother. CRAP. I've never had a problem with my hip, if anything it's my knees. I hardly ever get injured. 

Hopefully some stretching and rest will do it good.  

I'm starting to get serious about school. I acutally did all my homework tonight AT HOME! Big one for me. Lame, eh? 

Also, I fell into the wagon and made a facebook. See, I'm not very photogenic so my userpic sucks. But that's okay. You all make facebook's too! They're very private, as opposed to myspace. You have to be a certain age, and verify all this crap to prove you go to to certain school and join a network. Tis much more classy then myspace. But,  yea. 

Running hurts. 
I love it. 

And GEORGE CLOONEY! 
My god is a stone cold fox. Seriously. He is. I can't get over him. Ever since that damn Ocean's 11 movie I've been hooked. It's been like 2 years. I just started reobessing about him though. Hehe, Pre is fading out. He'll be back though, he always does come back.  Also, George is a very good actor. Very good. Won some oscars, too. He's hilarious and has a personailty, unlike some of those hollywood hunks. LIKE NICK LACHEY *COUGH* *COUGH*! 

A BEAUTIFUL PIC OF MR.CLOONEY:  


I love his smile. 

Love you all. 

Later.
Also, just some thoughts:

 

 


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Not everyone has an A in math

Feb. 19th, 2007 | 12:52 pm

heh. these are funny. 

 
You should def. check 'em out. 
This iz good.

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Another new smosh video

Feb. 4th, 2007 | 09:36 pm

Heh. 

Natalie and I have fallen in love with them. Seriously. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5q5uoEU8RRk

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So cute.

Feb. 3rd, 2007 | 11:54 pm

Very cute:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xmsV9R8FsDA
Very funny: 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C8rjr4jmWd0 

That is all.

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"The real purpose of running is to test the limits of the human heart."

Jan. 29th, 2007 | 05:53 pm

It's been a while since I've written a poast completely dedicated to running.  Time to do that. 

Why would anyone like running, I ask myself this everytime I run. I suppose a selective group of people enjoy what you feel when they run. And I would also like to suppose that I am one of them. I like feeling my chest burn. I like hearing my breathing. I like feeling my heart pump inside my chest. I like feeling my legs strain under me when I go up a hill, or the amazing rush of sprinting when you have nothing left. 

See, your going down the last 200 meters. You hear footsteps pounding behind you, heaving breathing. But your so exsausted, and your almost done. Why even care? Why try when you only have a tiny bit left? Does it matter if this girl beat you? Yes, you think. So in about a half of a second, you have to search for something inside of you. Anything that you have left. You can't let this girl beat you that's been behind you the whole race. CHICKEN SHIT, as Pre would say. Damn straight. 

You have to pull that shit out of you, and not give up. Then, BAM!, you find it. You grab onto to for dear life, and release it. Your legs burn like wildfire, you can hear you heart bursting at your ribcage, almost as if it's trying to tear through. Your legs are moving like crazy, the crowd starts screaming at you to go faster, she's right behind you, she's catching up. Then, your side by side.  Something in your head goes "Hell no.", and you somehow pump your legs even faster. Before you know it, your flying down the lane. The crowd is roaring at you, but all you can focus on is your body and how you can feel everything going on, as it screams and complains at you for doing that to it.  And..KABAM! Your across the finish line. You beat her. Ha. 

That's what I love about running. Crazy, eh? I'm sure you understand too Crain, when you just have to dig an 'effin big hole in your body to find that last bit of energy, and pull it out like something fierce. Somehow, I like that.

I always have something left, deep in there. And it bothers me, I shouldn't. I feel like I should being using that energy in a better way in the previous miles or something. Or maybe, I just have that. Wait, maybe everyone has it. They do. You just really have to want it, to find it, and somehow pull it out. 

I watched some pre things today on youtube. Inspired me to go write about how much I love running. 

Promise those of you who aren't running track will come and watch me run one race? I think that would be Natalie and Katherine. The rest of the 6-pac runs. Lindsey was thinking about not doing it. So I don't know. But yea, you two have to come see Linds, Cat, Chels, and me run. Pretty please. You'll suddenly be inspired to run track yourselves! 

I need to run now. 

BLAST! It's cold and rainy outside.
Hehe, never stopped me before. 

Toodles. 

I love whom I love and all that jazz, which would includ: 
Y'all 
GEORGE CLOONEY
Pre <3 
Smosh Boys (not brothers!) 
and.... orange sherbet 

Hehe. 

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